Being away from home hit me a lot harder than I expected….to the point that I considered going home. Heavily considered it. Ever the planner, I looked up flights. Thankfully though, I have friends and family who know me better than I know myself.
Where I said “I don’t want to do this,”, they reminded me that I don’t want to be in Georgia either. To quote Thornton: “You’re romanticizing Georgia. You don’t like Georgia.” (He’s right, by the way. Sorry to my fellow Georgians!) I spent a week in limbo, and it was perhaps the most awful week ever. But that was my own fault. I let my insecurities overwhelm and almost drown me–drowning is bound to be a miserable experience.
The second that I decided to stay, I wasn’t drowning anymore. I was no longer bogged down in decisions and uncertainties–I could breathe! I am so glad that I am staying–I am so glad that Tamara didn’t say, “Yes, come home. I need a roommate.” Because I know that I would have left, and I’m sure she knew as well. I was looking for any excuse, and thankfully everyone around me knew that and knew to not give me one.
Now I am recommitted! I had a good week work-wise, and an excellent day shopping-wise today! (Celebrating my first big-girl paycheck with shopping. So finance savvy. 🙂
More stories to come! After all, I’m in Malaysia! Special thanks to Tamara, Thornton, and my Dad for bringing me to my senses.